Depression now has gone too far.
I love her very much. Losing someone in life is not the best thing around. But one tend to appreciate after the lost.
I remember the time when I was in Starbucks Chaweng Beach @ Samui. Writing her the last love letter, buying her the last present which was a cute pastel colored handbag that she love. Then went over to survey beach side restaurants for nice beach side candlelight dinner. The bag was passed on to the waiter in advance to allow the surprise during the dinner. It was my first and the last beach side candlelight dinner with her. I'm happy to see her receiving something she likes.
But, it was the past.
I've not contacted her since almost after the trip. My intention was really not to cut tie with her. I love her so much that I wanted to give her the freedom. The freedom to know others and the freedom to do things she did not do when she was with me.
But, I'm now stuck in depression.
