Friday, September 19, 2014

Tears of a Dream

It was the saddest I've ever had. The girl whom I love the most shed tears in me, both reality and dream. My love for her had been both strong in dream and reality too. It all started when......

I was walking her down the road from my parents' house on one normal night. It seems everything was fine. We stopped by the bus stop down the road and waited. Many cars and busses were passing by. That road never had been so busy.

A bus came recklessly towards us. And the next thing happened was the bus knocked her and she flew off falling down into a wide drainage by the roadside walkway. Somehow, I escaped from the crash.

I could not breathe in that moment after the crash. I quickly ran to her and saw she was badly injured with injuries at the head and arm. Her arm was bleeding nonstop. I tried moving her to a resting position while pressing on her arm to suppress further bleeding. I believe she was half conscious that time. I shouted to the public to dial for the ambulance.

The next thing that I know, we were home while she was on the need with untreated injuries. I do not know why are we home and neither do I know what took the ambulance so long. Many hours past, and I call her mom. Her mom answered. She started the conversation knowing that her daughter had already left me, advicing me to let go off the relationship. I then spoke and told her what happened hours ago and where her daughter is now. Then, it went silent.

I got back to her and she bleed much lesser than before. Still, the ambulance was nowhere to be seen. Now that I'm awake, I realized why did we not send her to hospital by car instead of waiting? That was just a dream. It doesn't require logic.

She opened her eyes and looked at me. My eyes were tearful and she seems very much stronger than I was. At that very moment, her condition seems better. The dream ended there, before the ambulance arrive.

Do you need a dream to make you realize how important a person is to you? Even if you realized, what can you do?

Friday, September 5, 2014

The Past

I do not know them anymore. Both the guy and the girl. They seemed really happy in the past but nothing lasts. Love? Happiness? None will last.

Life is like leaving on the street now. Nothing more to look forward to. Everyday just barely surviving to see tomorrow's sunlight. Where has the ambition gone to? The target of life?

In the past, I've always been looking forward to start a family with her. Shower them with the best I can provide. At least, there is something to look forward to everyday. There is an aim to save money and work harder from day to day. But now? What is life?

People say when you lose a tree, there is still a forest. Although I have lost her, my love will always be with that tree. Seven months passed and certain things have not changed.

Little did she realized that I'm already non-existence.