Thursday, February 26, 2015

Empty Wishes

For the past years, on this very day of the Chinese lunar calendar, I will be at her place celebrating a tradition most Chinese practice in Malaysia especially the Chinese Hokkien community.

As an individual, I'm not a very religious person to be frank. But I do make wishes whenever I had the chance or when visiting Chinese temples. Birthday wishes were also part of them.

On this very day, we normally pray to the Jade emperor by giving offerings in return of good health and prosperity. People tend to make wishes either by praying or writing them down onto a paper lantern that will then set release to the sky.

For the past decade,y wishes were all the same. To marry her and start a family with her. Giving her a stable and peaceful life was all I wanted over the years of relationship.

Sadly, it never came through. Not anymore.

Tonight, sitting by the bedside alone, I can only wish for her health, career and happiness. Those are what matter most to me now.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Babies Boon

Very often, I find myself like my father. The love of having babies and little children has always been in me. But yet, it never happen.

I've always plan to start a family with her. To have a very happy family and children wandering around the house. But now, I guess it will never happen. My love for her has always been here since day 1 and never faded. But it will just not come to a result that will be favorable to the both of us. I love her. Today and tomorrow. It is really sad that things did not worked out between us both. The family that I've been dreaming of will never exist. What is a hone without family.

I guess I will never have a family of my own.