The Long Awaited

Dear,

The day has finally come. Her convocation day after for years of varsity days is held this weekend. She looks absolutely stunning in the graduation robe. Exactly what I could imagine years ago.

But I am nowhere to be there. This day was a very important day to me. To see her graduating, reaching a new milestone in life after all her hard work and all we've gone through from high school to pre-u then university. I was part of every of these phase in her life. But, I do not get to attend her convocation. Being the best day for her, it is also the hardest day for me.

While she doesn't want me to be part of her, I must admit that I still love her until today. Sometimes, things will never fade. Like this love. I guess she will never know but for me to bury this love together with me under the tombstone one fine day. Sadly, nothing can be done.

I kept dreaming about her. Last night, I had a series of dream about her. While I was in her home helping her family, she was out on a holiday. But I avoided her when she returns home. I know its not wise for her to face me. Something she will feel very uncomfortable.

But it's true that I can now only see the girl I love from afar. I can only imagine my future with her but not any other girls. Never was and never will. But all she may think at the end of the day is that I love her because I won't be able to get another girl. Well, her view will always stay with her. Little did she know that I've also avoided such intention from another girl during this period of time.

I love her.

With Regret,
Ray Phan